When I was fourteen, I shoved a carrot up my butt — I wanted to feel what it was like to let the world penetrate me

Back then the orbits Were proscribed by simple formulae

It sickens me To think that the shame I felt On that day Was so misplaced

I now look to Einstein And how relativity Reigns in my world

What survived those years?

Do bodies fall Or does the universe rise?

I don't know the answers Foggy memories meld Into mythos

Integrate this, bitch

I tell Of a monster what once was

A calculus of devoid. Echoes of a bigger bang

The death throes of a dying... Brute

Born into chaos

But mayhaps it was truly a chrysalis?

I cannot know

I cannot now